I started this blog not long after I was diagnosed with advanced terminal cancer. I’m not sure how long I have to live—I’ve outlived my lower expectations—but while I’m here I want to share this process of dying in the most positive way I can. I believe it’s important to talk about death and dying in this society that tries so hard to avoid it; I believe that this can reduce our fear and anxiety and potentially transform death (depending on the circumstances) into a beautiful and meaningful experience for the dying person and her loved ones.
Originally, I was writing this simply as facebook posts for concerned friends. I wanted them to know that I wasn’t suffering in despair the way they might be imagining. But my posts were long, and there were requests to gather them together. A blog seemed more readable. And I thought it would be a nice thing to leave for my loved ones, especially with some photos. Since then, many people I don’t know have started reading my posts. I am so glad that my words are facilitating a conversation about death and helping people find something more than distress in this one inevitable moment we all have to face.
Before I got sick last year, I was a college English teacher and researcher in Montreal. You can find my informal pedagogical research portfolio here in Susan’s teaching blog. I was also leading a federally funded research project into Indigenous students’ stories about post-secondary education. It was inspiring work and kept me very busy! Fortunately I had great research partners who are continuing that project.
I am also a writer and poet. You can find some interviews and reviews of my book The Crow’s Vow here.
I have two wonderful sons, Nathan (20) and Oliver (24). Nathan graduated last June from the National Circus School’s college program as a flyer in a duo, Max & Briscoe. Now they are touring the world with their act! Most impressively, Nathan overcame severe addiction to achieve this goal. You can see some of his acrobatics (he is crazy strong!) here on Nathan’s instagram. Oliver, after a stint working in video game design (he worked on the latest Deus Ex), is completing a degree in computer science and exploring wider options. I am always impressed by his multi-faceted creativity and wisdom!
My sweet boyfriend Roy Cross is a professor of film production at Concordia University in Montreal. We’ve been together six years. He’s been so amazing and loving through all this! He’s also a fabulous writer and has started his own very moving blog about life with a dying girlfriend, And sometimes it goes the other way. And recently he published a moving piece in the Huffington Post about being a Lucky Guy despite my diagnosis.
As you can see, I’ve been greatly blessed in this life. It’s a lot to give up, but also a lot to be grateful for.
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