Audre Lorde on Dying Full of Fire!

This is extraordinary poet Audre Lorde, on how to really live while dying:

I want to live the rest of my life, however long or short, with as much sweetness as I can decently manage, loving all the people I love, and doing as much as I can of the work I still have to do. I am going to write fire until it comes out my ears, my eyes, my noseholes — everywhere. Until it’s every breath I breathe. I’m going to go out like a fucking meteor!

What an inspiration! She wrote this in the year after being diagnosed with liver cancer, metastasized from earlier breast cancer, at fifty. Fortunately for all of us, she survived several more years and did indeed write fire!

Audre Lorde

This is also from her journal as she reflects on impending death and her life’s work as a revolutionary Black feminist (or Womanist) writer:

We all have to die at least once. Making that death useful would be winning for me. I wasn’t supposed to exist anyway, not in any meaningful way in this fucked-up whiteboys’ world. I want desperately to live, and I’m ready to fight for that living even if I die shortly. Just writing those words down snaps every thing I want to do into a neon clarity… For the first time I really feel that my writing has a substance and stature that will survive me.

I have done good work. There is a hell of a lot more I have to do. And sitting here tonight in this lovely green park in Berlin, dusk approaching and the walking willows leaning over the edge of the pool caressing each other’s fingers, birds birds birds singing under and over the frogs, and the smell of new-mown grass enveloping my sad pen, I feel I still have enough moxie to do it all, on whatever terms I’m dealt, timely or not. Enough moxie to chew the whole world up and spit it out in bite-sized pieces, useful and warm and wet and delectable because they came out of my mouth.

(Thanks to Kelly McKinney for sharing this post about Audre Lorde and setting me on a morning of reading her again.)

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7 Responses to Audre Lorde on Dying Full of Fire!

  1. curioussteph says:

    Fired up! Thanks for the inspiration, Audre and Susan.

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  2. We all have to die once! I wonder what we are suppose to do on this earth? I have always wondered this? Did you ever have these thoughts… today read has brought me back to this question

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  3. Right into the fiery pit, I am in love! Thanks for sharing infinite inspiration and another sister, dear Susan.

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